I’ve been taking a break, which includes finding a new job, creating new music, and generally - for lack of a better phrase - finding myself. I’ve had some realities that I haven’t faced in a long time - nor have I thought about them - and I think it’s time to have a sit with myself and think about the things that should be most important.
According to my father, the biggest obstacle in my path is my attitude - my lack of one when it’s needed, and the fact that I have one when it’s not. I’m not a teenager anymore - haven’t been for a while - but I have been treating my problems like one.
And if I am going to get past this, I am going to have to take a few truths with tongue in cheek and learn to move past them - to overcome them. To damn the genetics and learn to deal with what I have to deal with. No more running. And to be a little overdramatic, stand my ground and fight.
The options that are currently open to me: go back to college, get a job, or get into a “safer” portion of the armed services. Either way, I have to choose something.
The support of my readers is always welcome - and as always, something will happen. Either I’ll make the choice or it will be made for me.
And for my own gratification and self-image, I’d rather it be me that makes the choice.
July 31st, 2007 at 7:12 am
The only choices made for you are the ones which require you to adapt to a lower standard in succession down the ladder until you’ve the urge to look up and say “who the FUCK put me down HERE?”