I’ve been taking a break, which includes finding a new job, creating new music, and generally – for lack of a better phrase – finding myself. I’ve had some realities that I haven’t faced in a long time – nor have I thought about them – and I think it’s time to have a sit with myself and think about the things that should be most important.
According to my father, the biggest obstacle in my path is my attitude – my lack of one when it’s needed, and the fact that I have one when it’s not. I’m not a teenager anymore – haven’t been for a while – but I have been treating my problems like one.
And if I am going to get past this, I am going to have to take a few truths with tongue in cheek and learn to move past them – to overcome them. To damn the genetics and learn to deal with what I have to deal with. No more running. And to be a little overdramatic, stand my ground and fight.
The options that are currently open to me: go back to college, get a job, or get into a “safer” portion of the armed services. Either way, I have to choose something.
The support of my readers is always welcome – and as always, something will happen. Either I’ll make the choice or it will be made for me.
And for my own gratification and self-image, I’d rather it be me that makes the choice.